Courage of being single
This is an entry for the February Blog of the Month Competition.
Her life was powered off just like her mobile phone. It had been a month since she had received that message from him, "I am not capable of continuing this relationship."
She didn't seem to breathe as she read the text. Her heartbeat climbed Mount Everest, and then slowly, it felt like dying out. She had no idea how to move on. She was twenty-three years old, young and beautiful, but she wasn't sure if she was ready to love someone again. She was not willing to let someone take her heart and break it in front of her very eyes. Suddenly, she remembered that new word her English language’s teacher had taught her. It intrigued her. It empowered her to overcome the greatest storms of her life. The only word that saved her from neurological trauma: Resilience! In short, the word that kept her alive when death seemed to be the only option.
Whenever such circumstances surround us, when life suffocates, strangles and stabs us, resilience is the ability to fight back, to turn the tables and let the same people see us valiantly play the dauntless game called life.
She remembered Benedict Cumberbatch saying in Sherlock, "I have always assumed that love is a dangerous disadvantage, thank you for the final proof." Mustering up all the courage, she looked herself in the mirror with that G Eazy's song playing loud in her head, "I don't need a hand to hold, even when the night is cold, I got the fire in my soul."
Leaving emotions past her, she moved on because “Sentiment is a chemical defect found on the losing side”. She joined her father in jogging and asked him to teach her how to drive. In university she actively participated in activities of Shanawar Literary Society, presented her writings to the president of the society and to her surprise, the president appreciated her and offered her to become a member. Her writings not only attracted readers but also played decently with their emotions. Maybe she got this talent because her sentiments were ground in the same mortar- because someone so close to her heart had also played quite well with her feelings.
She didn't seem to breathe as she read the text. Her heartbeat climbed Mount Everest, and then slowly, it felt like dying out. She had no idea how to move on. She was twenty-three years old, young and beautiful, but she wasn't sure if she was ready to love someone again. She was not willing to let someone take her heart and break it in front of her very eyes. Suddenly, she remembered that new word her English language’s teacher had taught her. It intrigued her. It empowered her to overcome the greatest storms of her life. The only word that saved her from neurological trauma: Resilience! In short, the word that kept her alive when death seemed to be the only option.
Whenever such circumstances surround us, when life suffocates, strangles and stabs us, resilience is the ability to fight back, to turn the tables and let the same people see us valiantly play the dauntless game called life.
She remembered Benedict Cumberbatch saying in Sherlock, "I have always assumed that love is a dangerous disadvantage, thank you for the final proof." Mustering up all the courage, she looked herself in the mirror with that G Eazy's song playing loud in her head, "I don't need a hand to hold, even when the night is cold, I got the fire in my soul."
Leaving emotions past her, she moved on because “Sentiment is a chemical defect found on the losing side”. She joined her father in jogging and asked him to teach her how to drive. In university she actively participated in activities of Shanawar Literary Society, presented her writings to the president of the society and to her surprise, the president appreciated her and offered her to become a member. Her writings not only attracted readers but also played decently with their emotions. Maybe she got this talent because her sentiments were ground in the same mortar- because someone so close to her heart had also played quite well with her feelings.
She mostly spent her precious time in the library reading medical journals, pharmacology, and books by best authors like Dan Brown, J.K. Rowling, and Leila Aboulela. She was attracted towards Leila's books the most as her books mentally nourished her for her future life.
On 17th March 2018, she graduated from FJMU. She specialized as a neurologist and like other doctors earned a lot of fame. Unlike her other mates, she never got married as she never gave anyone the privilege of fragmenting her heart again. She knew she could survive in this society where first question women had to hear in any gathering was, "When are you going to marry?" or "koi nazar me hy to bta do?". She overlooked those absurd questions and dedicated her life to noble purposes.
She introduced a school for Orphan Children, with the collaboration of her mates, "Enlightening the Hearts". She ran a successful organization whose purpose was to develop confidence among people regarding their color, lifestyle and most importantly, their choices. For sure, her dream to create a difference in the society was fed by her little efforts. For those who could not afford the sky kissing charges of hospitals, she opened a free hospital with funding from well-known organizations of the world. She worked day and night with her team to widen the horizons of her work.
One day whilst sitting alone on a bench at Lahore Literary Festival, she thought that she had come a long way. Though at times, she felt like sobbing her heart out, bursting into tears, the best part was, she had carried her weight by herself. Instead of learning the art of loving someone from the opposite sex, she learned the art of being single. Instead of finding happiness in someone's arms, she found it in the sparkle of her recovering patients.
On 17th March 2018, she graduated from FJMU. She specialized as a neurologist and like other doctors earned a lot of fame. Unlike her other mates, she never got married as she never gave anyone the privilege of fragmenting her heart again. She knew she could survive in this society where first question women had to hear in any gathering was, "When are you going to marry?" or "koi nazar me hy to bta do?". She overlooked those absurd questions and dedicated her life to noble purposes.
She introduced a school for Orphan Children, with the collaboration of her mates, "Enlightening the Hearts". She ran a successful organization whose purpose was to develop confidence among people regarding their color, lifestyle and most importantly, their choices. For sure, her dream to create a difference in the society was fed by her little efforts. For those who could not afford the sky kissing charges of hospitals, she opened a free hospital with funding from well-known organizations of the world. She worked day and night with her team to widen the horizons of her work.
One day whilst sitting alone on a bench at Lahore Literary Festival, she thought that she had come a long way. Though at times, she felt like sobbing her heart out, bursting into tears, the best part was, she had carried her weight by herself. Instead of learning the art of loving someone from the opposite sex, she learned the art of being single. Instead of finding happiness in someone's arms, she found it in the sparkle of her recovering patients.
"Someday we will find what we are looking for
Or maybe not…
Maybe we will find something much greater than that."
Yasmeen Altaf(Batch of 2023)
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