4a.m. Thoughts ( BOTM)

 

                                 

اِنَّ فِىۡ خَلۡقِ السَّمٰوٰتِ وَالۡاَرۡضِ وَاخۡتِلَافِ الَّيۡلِ وَالنَّهَارِ لَاٰيٰتٍ لِّاُولِى الۡاَلۡبَابِ ۚۖ‏ ﴿3:190﴾ الَّذِيۡنَ يَذۡكُرُوۡنَ اللّٰهَ قِيَامًا وَّقُعُوۡدًا وَّعَلٰى جُنُوۡبِهِمۡ.      وَيَتَفَكَّرُوۡنَ فِىۡ خَلۡقِ السَّمٰوٰتِ وَالۡاَرۡضِ​ۚ رَبَّنَا مَا خَلَقۡتَ هٰذَا بَاطِلً.                                                

                     “lo! In the creation of the heavens and the Earth and (in) the difference of night and day are tokens (of His sovereignty) for men of understanding. Such as remember Allah, standing, sitting and reclining and consider the creation of the heavens and the Earth and say :”Our Lord! Thou created not this in vain”(surah Al-I ’Imran :190-191)

Why were these the verses Prophet (SAW) chose to recite upon waking up for tahajudd? Well, what other time is better for reflecting upon the perfect balance of the world around us. Back in that time it was even more peaceful. Man had only just begun to fiddle with nature.

Man has been born with a longing for peace, peace he thinks he gets by better organization, by disciplining his surroundings according to his own principles. He is rigid in attaining that balance. All machines perfectly explain what I mean. The Earths and heavens, on the other hand, are run with a discipline that’s natural, that suits not only human needs but of all the other creations. Nature is disciplined but not rigidly. True the Sun always rises from the East but does it always rise at exactly 4 30 am? The time for sun rise changes in a natural way. Throughout the year, the length of days and nights changes, weather changes, even the Sun slightly changes it’s direction. One might regard them as “inconsistencies” but to a thoughtful mind it’s perfect. It is what is needed, it is what should be.

Man made machines, rules may seem more disciplined, resistant to changes and yet that discipline doesn’t last for long; that discipline is exhausting. It may seem appealing but it’s not perpetual.

The same way the peace in human life and mind cannot be defined by a human itself, for me peace is not rigid, monotonous routine and the idea of "always being the best version of myself". My peace stems from the knowledge, the acceptance of the fact, that whatever I am, wherever I am, I am His slave (whether I am my worst self or my best self). As the Sun never forgets to rise and set, the day never forgets to end, I too, am supposed to remember my total submission to my master. Some days the Sun is behind the  clouds; I am emotionally weakened. The Sun remains on sky and I remain His slave. Nature remains in it’s boundaries and I try to do so for I do like peace; peace of mind, peace of heart and peace in entire world. If I have to choose between freedom and peace, I would always choose peace.

                             

Maryam Fatima khan

Session of 2023

Fjite.



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